Hey You! Look Up Here! Look Up Here!

I am finding life lessons in the oddest spots these days. Today, I stood on a wooden bridge with two little girls and played Pooh sticks with redwood cones and leaves. This is a foot bridge over the main road in our little sylvan burgh. We waited for cars and then commenced mad waving, trying to get someone's attention. I realize that a lot of my life is like this: I do small things by myself, absorbed in my games and then someone comes along. I drop my toys and wave like a mad woman-"Hi! Hi! HI! Notice me, notice me!" I wait, breath held, and then, "Yes! Recognition!" and I wriggle with delight like my two companions today. I love Donald Miller's book 'Searching for God Knows What': he reminds me that I am normal. I always thought that the propensity in me that cries out for approval from others was because of my deep insecurities, that I am totally screwed up, and that if anyone knew this about me, they would edge for the door, not quite meeting my eyes. Miller says instead that this need for other's approval is inherent; we are made to have someone else tell us what we are worth; in truth we are made for God to tell us our value. And when I come to God He tells me that I am important, that I matter, and that I am loved. When I try to get this kind of thing from other people, it is little wonder that I end up burned. People are just as messed up as I am, they haven't read the rule book, and don't really know what criteria to base their judgements on. This is the real reason we are told not to judge each other: we don't know how to do it correctly. Yes, as Pastor Dan reminds us, we are told to judge fellow Christians' actions, but only by the plumbline of the Bible. Even then, it is really tricky work.


Camille said...

hey collywobbles! you are cool! This is one of the coolest things about the 'net... we can gratuitously ask for approval, and (buh buh bum!) get some lovin'

Dan said...

I will be with Donald Miller in two weeks speaking at an event in Florida. It is facinating what influence he has had in connecting with people. by the way, when shall we see Bradley writing and putting his doodles on a blog?

Gibbytron said...

hello! good to find you on here. be inspired and write my friend!



Rosa said...

Dan, Well, it WAS a little disconcerting to pick up a Donald Miller book & casually peruse the quotes on the back, only to find-my own pastor's! It forget that you get around in the world. That's probably just as well.
On the same note, when can we get a copy of your books for the church library? I told you I'm turning into a church lady.

angel said...

Hi Collywobbles! You know, I'd never heard of Donald Miller until I randomly came upon one of his books on Amazon, To Own A Dragon; it was healing. I also bought Blue Like Jazz, but I haven't yet had a chance to read it. I would love to borrow Searching for God Knows What sometime. Hope to see you soon!
Love, angel

p.s. Am i the only one that it takes three tries for my comment to post because I get the letters wrong? Either I'm too brilliant for (blogspot) letters or a dunderhead...

Read Your Way Through the Garden: Choice Tomes From Garden Literature

  • A Book of Salvias by Betsy Clebsch
  • Botany for Gardeners by Brian Capon
  • Making Bentwood Trellises by Jim Long
  • RHS Encyclopedia of Plants & Flowers
  • Rose Primer: An Organic Approach to Rose Selection & Care by Orin Martin
  • Start With the Soil by Grace Gershuny
  • Sunset Western Garden Book
  • Sunset Western Landscaping Book
  • The Book of Garden Secrets by Patent & Bilderback
  • The Concise Oxford Dictionary of Botany
  • the Gardener's Table: A Guide to Natural Vegetable Growing and Cooking by Richard Merrill & Joe Ortiz
  • The Gardener's Year by Karel Capek
  • The Hutchinson Dictionary of Plant Names: Common & Botanical
  • We Made A Garden by Margaret Fish

lotsa latin: rosa's botanical & etymological ruminations

  • vespertinus: flowers in the evening
  • vernalis:spring
  • veni vidi nates calcalvi: we came, we saw, we kicked butt. This was printed on a T shirt I bought at Abbot's Thrift many years ago. It encircled the NEA symbol. I wish I knew why.
  • superciliaris: shaped like an eyebrow ex: sturnella superciliaris, the White-browed Blackbird
  • rosa-sinensis: species of Hibiscus: Hibiscus rosa-sinensis. Lit. Rosa of China, so named by British plant hunters.
  • placentiformis: shaped like a cake ex: discocactus placentiformis
  • nudiflorus: flowers before leaves show ex: flowering quince, magnolia
  • nivalis: growing in or near snow ex: galanthus nivalis (common snowdrop)
  • muralis: growing on walls
  • mirabilis: marvellous, wonderful
  • formosa: beautiful ex: dicentra formosa, a.k.a.western bleeding heart/dutchman's breeches/lady in a bath
  • carpe vitam: get a life
  • Carolus Linnaeus: Latinized name of Carl von Linne (1707-1778), Swedish naturalist considered the father of plant taxonomy. Whatta guy.